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Mak
Friday 2 October 2015 @ 22:59




have you ever wonder how is your life without your mother? my mother is my everything. my strength, my source of happiness and the main reason why i keep myself strong.


she do lots of thing. she is my king and 
queen in once. she protect me and she will keep me safe even though she is hurt. the woman who sacrifice her life to take care of her 3 little stubborn children and take a good care of her husband who was attacked by stroke at her early 30's. who struggle and keep all the pain by herself. she will always smile and make us happy. she never fails to bright up our day. she tries her best to give us everything that we wish for even though it is the cheapest because she was broke that time but she will never tell us about all the troubles that she faced.

she totally keep every single pain by herself and share with us her happiness. can you just tell me, how can i hate or dislike this beautiful and tough woman of mine? no. i will never hate her. insya Allah.

there she is. standing alone to ensure her 
family is in the best condition. she is bleeding inside and out but she force herself to standstill. one day, i hope i can make her smiling proud and see her tears of joy. i know she is proud of her children no matter what. she will never ever compare us like other parents do. she know us perfectly perfect. she is the main reason for us to step further in this horrible life.

i can't bare to see her broken into pieces, 
blaming herself because of our faults. if i do wrong, blame me not her. she taught us to leave all the bad things and be a very nice person on earth when we grown up. but if we took the opposite way, it is our fault not hers. once you point your finger or throw harsh words

at my mother, i will break your bones and make
sure you regret because doing those thing. no one can make her sad. no one! neither you, me, my brothers, society nor herself! she had taught us everything in detail. so blame us!

it saddened me when she told us that she pity us 
for not getting enough love from her since she busy with her work. SHE SACRIFICE HER LIFE FOR GOD SAKE TO BE A REALLY NICE KING AND QUEEN FOR THE THREE OF US SINCE WE ARE LITTLE AND THERE SHE IS, PITYING US AND BLAMING HERSELF FOR THE THING THAT ACTUALLY SHE TRIED SO HARD TO SHOWER US WITH. A FATHER AND MOTHER BY HERSELF!we should be the one who pitying her. she could enjoy her life with her friends instead of working so hard at her 30's to make sure there is food on the table for us so that we will not starving while she is stressing out

of her life ALONE!

i do have imagine my life without her but at 
the end, lost in error. how can i live my life without her? it must be such a horrible life of mine. she always give me positive vibes, always worry about our future. oh Lord, i hope that i meet You before she meets You and i hope that i meet You when i'm allow to enter Your heaven. when i'm gone, please protect her from syaitans and jins. bring her to the right path. aamiin ya Allah.


mak, i know i am not the best daughter 
that a mom could have.i know i am not the best to treat you like a king and queen. i am proud of you for every single effort that you put to make us better than others. i love you with my fullest heart and there is not even a dot in my heart to hate you. if one day i make you disappointed with my whole life journey, i am sorry from the deepest of my heart in advance. it is not
your fault for it. it is mine and always my fault. if i achieve my success in my life, yes, you should be proud of yourself. you can smile and tell people it is because of you i succeed. i love you since i was in your uterus till my last breath.

from: your one and only daughter.


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